Wednesday, March 28, 2018
It seems that the older I get, the more complicated things become, and the uglier I see the world to be. Even if one tries to do good, many times it is for nothing. The evil around us just drowns it out. I could die right now, and it would not matter much to even those who seem closest to me. My use to them would be no more, that is all; and my body and mind no longer able to be owned or manipulated.
Their hearts grown cold, if not hardened to stone, by greed, deceit, betrayal, envy, revenge, cruelty, and selfishness, among other negative elements that murder good, peace, harmony, growth, happiness, and love.
Frankenstein monsters -- you try to make them human, and have a human heart. Yet they cannot be controlled, and continue to wreak havoc, destroying what's around them and usually towards their creator's ruin. Still, you hope they would one day be able to see and change for the better.
Through it all, I've grown to see the bitter truth, of others but also of me too. I've realized how weak I truly am, and how those around me either contribute to my weaknesses, or are disgusted by them or resent me for them.
Maybe there are others, or someone out there who is not as cruel. I don't know if I would ever be fortunate enough to encounter that shooting star. But even if I did, what is left of me to offer? I am no longer the same as I was before. The soul, worn and beaten. You can't live years amongst demons and not pay the price. Nevertheless, I continue to dream... that maybe there is a beautiful world waiting for me.
This site is still under construction...
You may also be wondering where all the old posts are at. Well, I plan on re-publishing them one by one, appending to the writing and injecting some new and retrospective thoughts; while at the same time, creating new posts as well with new content. So sort of going back and forth in time.
5 comments:
Who takes picture with you cutie boy? I guess you always have a partner haha
Those are really sad pictures, sad and dark, but true.
I just stumbled upon your blog.
you got a great blog and It's inspiring.
@Nan - Thank you for your comment
Sometimes, you see things based on your perceptions. However, there are many things in this world that could make you happy. Just look around you and open your hearts
Why cant i follow you?
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